where do i come from, what am i, where am i going?

i have been in somewhat of a slump as of late,  it started out almost a month ago when i got sick, this caused me to get behind with some major assignments in school.  i sleep every other day at least twice a week and even this does not afford me enough time to catch up or even just to maintain and finish the regular work that i have to do.  

on top of this i have been rather introspective as of late.  i seem to be stuck in a set way of doing things and this is bugging me.  to me school is not about what you know, its about what you dont know and how far you are willing to take it.  although i feel i have been learning a ton about anatomy this quarter there is still so much i do not know.  i knew a fair amount of anatomy of the head.  the torso i knew somewhat about previously in relation to the skeleton but learning the muscles on top really helped me bridge the gap between what i see and what i know is underneath.  i am still struggling with knees arms and legs.  blocking in the feet has helped a lot with placing figures solidly in a location.  i feel a have a lot more to learn about them, they seem to be the mushiest part of the body given the extreme number of bones there.  it make sence though because most of the weigh seems to land on the feet.    

i guess the closest thing i can think of to drawing the figure would be garlic, the bulbs of garlic under the skin are similar in some ways to muscles under flesh.  i like figure drawing because it is so hard, the only thing i can think of that is more challenging than figure drawing is drawing fast moving water.  running water is also like the figure in the sense that what it flows over affects its form, it has the additional problem of being transparent and reflective.